12 November 2021
Dear Baby,
I feel better today. Still getting used to the idea that I am not alone anymore – I have you to think about.
To be honest, I still think the tests are inaccurate, but all my other bodily symptoms and changes tell me otherwise. You are real and I hope to take care of you.
Help me to eat food that you need, because Mum doesn’t have the healthiest taste in food. I just want you to be healthy.
I am challenged by the idea of raising you. I want to give you all the wonderful things life can bring. I want you to grow in love, knowing the warmth of a real home.
I pray, even now, that you get to know God, and love Him deeply, personally. Know that God is real, no matter what circumstances dictate.
I am sorry for bringing you in such a broken world – I hope you’d be a form of light this current darkness needs.
I love you even now. Hang in there.
This is another series I launched in this space. I have written numerous letters to my child in the hopes of giving this to him as a gift someday. These letters also serve as a way for me to pour out my thoughts and emotions during the different stages of my pregnancy and motherhood.
Some letters I might post as an excerpt, some I’d publish unabridged. I hope to give this someday to Raphael and I want to keep some of my private thoughts and wishes, private.
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